The Samskara

It's been a while since I've posted in this blog.  Honestly I forgot all about it.  Not that I haven't been healing myself because I do that everyday as my chakras get out of balance, but I guess something major like this needs to be done ever so often.  Well as much as your little weak physical body can take.

So the last time I posted in this blog I was talking about a heart issue.  Since then I have  broken through that blockage in the center of my heart chakra and have dealt with another samskara in the lower part of my energy body.  Last night though I finally dealt with another samskara in my heart chakra which I myself created as a reminder of my mission on earth, but I have to say that this was one annoying samskara.  This is when I began to realize that samskaras are not just scars or necessarily negative though they effect you negatively at times.  They come off as negative because they imprint a message on your soul, so to speak.  However, this message repeats itself whenever a similar experience is triggered.  This is neither good nor bad really.  Its just that the unbiased nature of the samskara can cause you to create certain illusions, if you are not sensitive enough to the true message of the samskara.

So in all actuality the samskara is simply a crystallization in the energy body.  It is really hard to find them if you are not able to tune into the other dimensions of yourself.

If you are already ify about what I'm already saying, you may not want to read the rest of this blog because I may share things you do not understand...

So this samskara was created when I decided to come to earth.  I remember as they were kicking me out of the ship (from my perspective) and I had to come here to help (slightly grudgingly)... I was thinking about what all I had to do here and I was reminding myself that I could not trust people on earth.  Though at the time, this was a good message for me to have, through lifetimes it is causing me attract undesirable experiences for myself.  So I'm glad that I've dealt with this samskara because I did not want to add to it anymore. lol


In order for true healing to take place, you must deal with the root of an issue.  Dealing with symptoms is still only dealing with symptoms if you are not getting to the root of an issue now matter how holistic the means.  The only way to be sure that an issue does not resurface itself is to deal with it at the root level.  Reiki energy is great for refueling the cells with positive light energy and especially for assisting another healer, but if you are not getting to the root of an issue, you are only putting bandaids on what still yet needs to be healed.

I'm a true healer.  If you need true healing, don't wait, contact me NOW
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980.319.0623
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Dealing with the Drama/Trauma

I don't even know where to start, but this needs to be said.  Someone needs to hear this.  Someone needs to be healed.

So I've been holding on to all this past trauma and dealing with it in portions.  As a child I repressed a lot of memories.  During my adolescence I used this as a trick to help me lie better... I figured if I didn't remember the truth then my lie would be true.  It was the only thing that worked for me because Im naturally an honest person.  If you understand astrology ect ect all the forms of biocosmology ect ect then you will understand what I mean when I say that I CANT Lie.  I fought it then, but now I've come to accept it.

Thats besides the point

This way of dealing with trauma-- Lying--Repressing memories so you can believe the lie--the fairytale version of the story is very prevalent in society.  Most people lie to themselves so well that they never are even consciously aware.  Its a slave thing- IMO

anywho...

What I'm saying is that ... the more I heal myself... the more memories of my childhood I recover... its hard to deal with but at the same time its liberating and brings clarity.  Its  a bittersweet experience that I know the whole world will benefit from me going through the process

Here is the story.

My father molested me as a child.  He told me that it was how love was supposed to be expressed.  He mad me think it was something special that was only shared between special people and that it was TOP SECRET information.  

Its hard for me to go into meditation now because real meditation for me is going to go deeper into the experience so that I can heal from it, but there is a battle.  The battle we all experience when dealing with trauma--you don't want to.  Its much easier for the psyche to pretend that it doesn't exist, but it does and until you deal with it the repercussions of it will remain a part of your life.

But my heart chakra can never be permanently opened until I deal with this experience.  This experience of severe neglect by my mother who was in denial while this happened to me.  The severe neglect of others in my family who knew something was happening with me and never took action to help me.  The abuse that for so long--I've fought my subconscious to delete from existence.  But no matter what I want to be true... no matter what anyone wants to be reality... IT HAPPENED.  and it must be dealt with.

How do I confront this?  How do I tell my oldest sister that her son has most likely been molested by my Father... how do I admit to keeping such a secret for so long due to shame?

I am ashamed.

I'm a healer... and this mess in my heart chakra is evident to every healer I meet.  Does this make me a hypocrite... forcing others to face their issues while I've been avoiding my own?

What will they say about me when they read this?

How many will say I made it all up?

I don't care anymore... I want to be free... I want to be me...and I want to be healed.

I'm Nanu

This is my story...


I'm a true healer.  If you need true healing, don't wait, contact me NOW
godisnanu@gmail.com
980.319.0623
beautifulnanu.com